Monday, December 04, 2006

Farewell.... for now

And so it came to pass that the security ppl of my glorious organization deemed Blogger a dire threat to the survival of the company. So extreme was this threat that they blocked all access to this domain. Seeing that I do not (as yet) have internet at home, I am no longer able to comment on blogs.

Fortunately, the great Google has saved me wth their online Feed reader and I am now able to follow what you have posted (yay! for me!... ALL HAIL GOOGLE OVERLORD OF ALL THAT IS INTERNET) . But I still had the desire to blog, as a result I have been forced to resume My bologging (*** Insert Darth Vader Theme Music Here***) on MSN Spaces.

you may view (if u wish) my ramblings on

Friday, November 10, 2006

To Be Or Not To Be...

And so it came to pass that locks were placed on the doors to our beloved lovebird because the caretakers, being a bit strapped for cash, had not paid the bills.
In the face of such Heart rending news the leader of our opposition came out with a statement that shook me to my core;

“For God’s sake let the airline die!”

I was hurt, simply because It is a symbol of national Pride, more importantly my national pride.

The more Apathetic ones amongst us see this as no reason to flog what they consider to be a dead horse.
In my view Drastic changes will be needed to keep the airline afloat, Indeed the staff off Air J as well as we tax payers may need to, as or “Esteemed” former prime minister once said,

“Suck salt through wooden spoon”.

The importance of having a sense of national pride in the citizens of a country is Striking, But then that’s what you get when Economist Run the world (sorry SM).

Look, there is more to Governance than balancing the budget. The leadership of a country is there to keep the country moving forward and prosperous. Now what we often forget is that Prosperity does not only mean financial wellness in fact the exact Definition is; (

a successful, flourishing, or thriving condition

I cannot see how you can say you trying to do this when you are taking away from the people some of the very things that motivate people to move forward.. sigh
To be honest I think you cant put a price tag on national pride, there comes a point where some things are folly, But until EVERY LAST AVENUE has been be explored then, and only then ,would I consider shutting Air Jamaica down.

This is the Seeker and I am JAMAICAN.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Another Life lesson

Interesting life lesson I have been taught over the pass 2 months. I still am in the course have yet to to do the final test, i.e. learn to actually incorporate it into my life;

Go after/Take what you want, you may just be allowed to have it.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006


have you ever felt like you are overdue for a pin prick?

Friday, October 20, 2006

Turkey and the EU

I don’t know, I see both sides of the argument, But I do believe Isolating Turkey from Europe will push them towards the Middle East, do you really want that?
Besides, Those against the move Talk about Europe loosing its Identity, But I challenge you to tell me what Europe’s Current Identity is. One Journalist referred to the Europe and some Kind of exclusive Christian Club. That is dangerous. I do understand the reservations; Turkey is a very different country… Boy this a tuff case that I am glad I don’t have to choose. What do you say?


It is interesting how NK’s biggest ally, China, Quickly turned on it the minute they followed a course of action that they did not agree with. It made me rethink the old belief that “The Enemy Of My Enemy Is My Friend”. How true is the statement?

In the arena of world politics, this sort of attitude has lead to many problems. The list includes countries like Iraq, Iran, Afghanistan, and Columbia. The reality is the Enemy of My is really my temporary Ally. In light of this, in today’s society where ones power is dependent on who you ally yourself, to what extent should one look at the consequences. How much responsibility do you have to the people you ally you self to as well as to what extent can you be held accountable for the actions of these Allies. Take for example Syria, for quite a number of years now Syria has refrained from taking any direct actions against Sire or any other western country, however, because of there support for Lebanon Iran and the Palestinians they have been put under enormous pressure by the “Western countries”. However when the Taliban started supporting terrorist attacks no pressure was put on the US for funding them. But then again I do realize this is not a fair comparison. What I am driving at is the fact that countries need to be more careful of the people/regimes they support. At some point one needs to look at the long-term consequences of your actions.
I won’t even start with the US… I am upset thinking about it.. But look at China. If China does not believe they can trust Little Kim with a nuclear weapon why on earth are they support them? Look Iran is developing a nuclear Program But Syria Knows they can trust them as such they have unwavering support, Pakistan and India recently developed Nuclear weapons but the US knows they have their Military in their corner so they have no Qualms supporting them. The fact is, if you think the man is unstable WHY are you supplying his army? (sigh)
It is sad state, and that just one example, Russia and the US are by FAR Worst. Really these countries need to be help accountable for the actions of their so-called allies Seriously! But then the Question is who is going to hold them accountable :S certainly not the UN

Another E-Mail

Disclaimer: The views expressed below are not neccesserily those of the owner of this blog. And for the record I got this from a female.

Subject: Rules for being a Man!

1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella.

2: It is ok for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances:

a. When a heroic dog dies to save its master.

b. The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse.

c. After wrecking your boss' car.

d. One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The Crying Game".

e. When she is using her teeth.

3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally
killed and eaten by his buddies.

4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend
out of jail within 12 hours.

5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off
limits forever unless you actually marry her.

6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is
forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.

7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for
another man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly

8: On a road trip, the strongest bladder determines pit stops, not
the weakest.

9: When stumbling upon other guys watching a sporting event, you may
ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's

10: You may flatulate in front of a woman only after you have
brought her to climax. If you trap her head under the covers for the
purpose of flatulent entertainment, she's officially your girlfriend.

11: It is permissible to drink a fruity alcohol drink only when
you're sunning on a tropical beach... and it's delivered by a topless model
and only when it's free.

12: Only in situations of moral and/or physical peril are you
allowed to kick another guy in the nuts.

13: Unless you're in prison, never fight naked.

14: Friends don't let friends wear Speedos. Ever. Issue closed.

15: If a man's fly is down, that's his problem, you didn't see

16: Women who claim they "love to watch sports" must be treated as
spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to
drink as much as the other sports watchers.

17: A man in the company of a hot, suggestively dressed woman must
remain sober enough to fight.

18: Never hesitate to reach for the last beer or the last slice of
pizza, but not both, that's just greedy.

19: If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you'd better be talking>about his choice of beer.>
20: Never join your girlfriend or wife in discussing a friend of
hers, except if she's withholding sex pending your response.

21: Phrases that may NOT be uttered to another man while
lifting weights:

a. Yeah, Baby, Push it!

b. C'mon, give me one more! Harder!

c. Another set and we can hit the showers!

22: Never talk to a man in a bathroom unless you are on equal
i.e. Both urinating, both waiting in line, etc. For all other
situations, an almost imperceptible nod is all the conversation you

23: Never allow a telephone conversation with a woman to go on
longer than you are able to have sex with her. Keep a stopwatch by the
phone. Hang up if necessary.

24: The morning after you and a girl who was formerly "just a friend"
Have carnal drunken monkey sex, the fact that you're feeling weird
and guilty is no reason for you not to nail each other again before the
discussion about what a big mistake it was occurs.

25: It is acceptable for you to drive her car. It is not acceptable
for her to drive yours.

26: Thou shall not buy a car in the colors of brown, pink, lime
green, orange or sky blue.

27: The girl who replies to the question "What do you want for
Christmas?" with "If you loved me, you'd know what I want!" gets an
Xbox.End of story.

28: There is no reason for guys to watch Ice Skating or Men's
Gymnastics. Ever.

We've all heard about people having guts or balls. But do you really
know the difference between them? In an effort to keep you informed,
the definition of each is listed below.

GUTS - is arriving home late after a night out with the guys, being
assaulted by your wife with a broom, and having the guts to ask,
"Are you still cleaning or are you flying somewhere?"

BALLS - is coming home late after a night out with the guys smelling
of perfume and beer, lipstick on your collar, slapping your wife on the
ass and having the balls to say, "You're next!"

I hope this clears up any confusion.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

My Princess Gone

Ok so I would figure that seeing that there has always been a tug of war between spending time with my GF and my other friends, her being away would not be too hard as I now could spend as much time with everyone else as I use to. I mean I fully well expected to miss her but figured that I’d lyme enough to keep myself distracted


I literally think about her every minute, there is just something about absence… I don’t know
And every day I am just thinking the 2 weeks are getting longer and longer. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy the time with my friends but… I don’t know
A perfect example is yesterday, I ran out of credit the day before and seeing that I running on a budget I decided to wait a day before I called. Can I tell you that was almost physically painful, I mean every 2 seconds I am taking up the phone to call. Totally pathetic if you ask me (Go Away CB). The worst part is if she was here I wouldn’t feel such a great need to call, Mind you I don’t think we have ever gone a day without calling each other but still… Of course I had to get a phone card…

**sigh** this 2 weeks is gonna be long

Monday, October 02, 2006

World War 2

In 6th form one could say I was a world war 2 buff, I found the war the battles the struggle somewhat interesting. As such I went out of my way to read articles and watch documentaries about it. Today, for the first time I was shaken. I mean near the point of tears, and that is allot for me. It was history channel documentary on the part of the war that involved Japan and the US.

Over the years I have not come across much with regards to it. I have always held the US in some contempt with regards to Nagasaki and Hiroshima, but never had I truly thought about the horror.

Even typing it now and replaying the images in my mind makes me pause at the sheer horror and futility of it…

This documentary unlike most others I had seen held nothing back. I mean war in all its Grotesque fury was on display. I saw Soldiers empty a revolver into a seemingly dead body because they could not risk the Jap being alive. I saw an interview of an American soldier who mater of factly spoke about the battle for Okinawa where they took no prisoners. He, in a very calm and steady voice, spoke about interrogating those captured and then shooting them in the head, or if they were to close to enemy lines they cut their throats. I could have cried, not for the prisoners only but for that and the many other young full of life youths like me who joined or were drafted who had to be bathed in blood and scarred to the point where to slit another mans throat and have his blood on your hands literally had to be fact of life.

I cannot begin to describe to you how much this documentary has made me despise war. And the hard part is all these ppl had to die because some guys in an air-conditioned office said they had to do it.

How does such a man who has seen horrors and done atrocities that not even TV could show rejoin society and live a normal life?

For whatever reason they attacked Pearl Harbor, the Japs only killed soldiers, but here were the Americans forced to fight a war they did not want because these Japanese hurt them as individuals and as a country. They were violated in the as bad a way as any country could be violated. As expected they wanted revenge, perfectly normal and so they went to hurt them as much or more than they had been. Again I cannot wrong them for this.

But the Japanese were different when defending their homeland; you see they love their country, and even taught school children how to kill American soldiers. In the end the Americans wanted to hurt a ppl that would fight to their last breath to defend their homeland. All so futile Soldiers who felt the need for revenge and a ppl who would die to save their country.

2 Sides bent on killing each other.

There was no way out, American honor and need to avenge the violation of their country compiled on individuals who saw this never ending wave of Japanese soldiers come in and kill their friends over and over again. And to the Japs who all they wanted to do was to protect there homeland, whose honor would not allow an American to set foot on their homeland while they drew breath… sigh…

And today I ask myself have the japs forgiven the Americans truly? Have they forgiven the sea of dead fellow countrymen, women and children who blood covered their country? Forget that, How do you for give Nagasaki and Hiroshima.. I tell you I couldn’t… Children babies Mothers fathers’ daughters whose skin was stripped from their flesh…. I couldn’t forgive that…

And I ask about these soldiers that came back from the war that sparked the baby boom, these were broken men re-molded in a inhumane world, what sort of upbringing did they give their children, what did they teach what could they teach…

Birthday.. again

Well my birthday is rolling around again, and as can be expected I find myself dreading the day coming around again. It not that I hate my bday but as I said before I really don’t like celebrating it. I cringe at telling people the exact day for fear they may want to do something (sigh).
In any case It’s just apart of life and one of the things one has to go through.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Why Nice Guys Make 'Not So Ideal' Boyfriends.

This Blog has been inspired by a number of my friends either from their experiences or Statements they have made.

Mummy Mel once said to me; “the thing about some guys is that the very thing that attracts you to them is the thing that makes a relationship with them difficult”

You see, the nice guy you know is the kind of guy you basically call on at any time and he will there for you. A Listening ear and an extra hand that is always on call, seemingly there to cater for your every need.In many cases he is also the perfect gentleman as well as personal body guard/Escort when you just want some one to go out with.

Now this makes him look really good in your eyes and the fact that all of his friends (which include a large number of females) can count on him makes him seem suitable to be your mate.

The catch 22 is only seen when you do manage to snatch this ‘close to perfect’ man. You begin to realize his ability to be on call for you and for all his other friends means that his personal life gets neglected. He’s such a great guy however that It isn’t really a problem, He’ll gladly sacrifice his personal life to suit your every whim… cool until you ARE apart of his personal life, and you begin to realize that you are now being sacrificed, for him to be on call.

Now what I find happening is that some women feel neglected and may go as far as to think he may not love them. But that is very much (usually) far from the case.

The problem really starts when you start to complain because you both realize that you essentially want him to become b*tch to his friends… sticky.
A lot of women put up with this abuse because they feel guilty about telling him he needs to cut his friends off, at the same time those who have no such reservations find that their S.O. may become more distant and hurt, thinking you are asking them to not only give up their friends but to also Become a cold hearted and calculating person… Very Sticky.

Solution? I don’t know.
What I have found Is that a compromise has to be made. The guy must realize if he wants to keep this girl he has to make her feel special period… easier said than done I know., but you have to let her know that the level importance she has in your life is above your other friends. On Her side, she going to have to realize that she should not try to change what she loved about him to begin with, Share a little, Don’t turn you man into soothing you’d hate, it may backfire.

Here endeth the reading of The Seeker Of Truth’s Infinite words of not so wise wisdom.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Chess in 10th grade

I do not use ‘foul’ language simply because I choose not. It no longer holds a fascination for me. I will use if needed but I realize that the less you use it the profound it is when you do.
I went through ‘foul-mouth’ hay day in tenth grade where every other word during a chess match was punctuated with the first curse word that came to mind.
I became very proficient in its use and it became almost second nature.

I must say that we were so bad that they almost banned chess playing because of us, But then you have to understand teachers dilemma… You pass a classroom and you all you hear is chairs moving and guys shouting the most foul of languages at the top of their lungs and you walking expecting to see either a fight, football game or some illegal magazine, only to find every one sounding 3 to four tables each with game of chess going on.
Mind you fights did break out over these chess games. Those guys were passionate about it. The best players were not always the most bookish; in fact one of them rarely attended classes had very poor grades and essentially was a ‘bad man’. Actually I suspect he was in a gang.
It was on of the things I loved about my time in 10grd. The great diversity in our backgrounds and our outlooks took second place to out love for the game. It was a melding of great minds.
I will not brag and say I was the best. I was amongst the best, after a while ppl became careful of whom they challenged. I remember on person in particular, I honestly thought he was the best player in the class, but he use to run from matches he thought he would loose
Playing against him was like playing against a brick wall unstoppable that fellow.. He could have beat every one but for whatever reason he doubted his own skill

He definitely beat me more times than I beat him.

Boy thinking about it I do miss that about tenth grade, the endless chess matches every lunchtime… sigh. I must say that I don’t think any of us joined the schools chess club or team for that matter
This was just a bunch of guys wanting flex their mental prowess and see who was better.

Who said testosterone was bad?


Hmmm. The art of apologizing.
We all have a need some point our lives to apologize, lets face we aren’t that perfect. Of late however I find apologizing is hard, not because I feel I am right or anything like that. Rather its because I am tired.

I don’t think I apologize more often than anyone else but I find that saying words don’t mean much, even coming out of my own mouth. In my mind my actions should show my apology more so than my words…

However being that I interact with humans I realize that the words carry some symbolism to them and so I say them… I must admit to myself that they mean something when people say it to me.
I guess the primary means of expressing emotion between humans is the use of words. As such, remorse and the associated feelings are typically expressed through this medium.

This leaves a peculiar problem for me… I really am tired of saying sorry, it is really hard for me to express how hollow it sounds to myself. Don’t get me wrong I am sorry… well usually, if I think I am in the wrong…. and I do… ahh… usually… intend to do better.

I guess this is another rule/guideline that governs human interaction that one should adhere to…boy we humans are something else.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Time To Go Old Boy

So it is the End of days for Tony Blair’s rain and it seems the British ppl, or at least the ones in his own party, cant wait to see the back of him.

My view on this whole situation is that it is a classic case of ;
‘bad people happening to good individuals’.

The fact of the matter is Britain and the US are allies and during Clinton’s presidency Blair and Clinton Forged a very strong relationship between the two countries. Together moving and shaking the world in as a positive way as they saw. Their partnership at all times appeared as two good friends who lead two of the most powerful nations in the world.
Between them, and their allies things were more or less ok. When the ppl of Florida decided to scre… err… let me rephrase that.

When the ‘American people’ elected Bush to power,
quite naturally Blair sought to continue this close relationship. Not too bad an idea at the time even in spite of Bush’s seeming problem with speaking coherently over a period of time. However after 9/11 everything changed. The war in Afghanistan was not too bad a call to support. However, after that the nature of the relationship changed. All of a sudden Bush broke off on a tangent at full sprint, essentially pissing off everyone in his wake. Blair not wanting to jeopardize the relationship with the US took off after him…. .

Now I can’t blame Blair for his choice. A close partnership with the world’s most powerful nation is never really a bad idea and in the end when America (hopefully) gets a sensible president, he is counting on them to remember that Britain had their back when the going got tuff.
A huge sacrifice to make.
He essentially shot himself in the foot politically to remain in the good graces of Britain’s most powerfully ally.
Now it may sound away to many ppl but the repercussions of this most likely will spell good Britain and its citizens for some time to come. Added to that, you can bet that if Britain finds itself against the wall, they expect America to come running.

All in all I will say Blair was as good a leader as Clinton, But had to make some tuff unpopular decisions and tried to stay on the fence which is never easy, I don’t think he did it very well, others may differ, but his relationship with the rest of Europe or the rest of the world for that matter (not including Muslims of course) is not too badly damaged and its Relationship with the US is intact.

Mission accomplished?

Friday, September 08, 2006

One of Immortal's Songs that stand Out To Me

The 4th Branch

The new age is upon us
And yet the past refuses to rest in its shallow grave
For those who hide behind the false image of the son of man
shall stand before God!!! It has begun
The beginning of the end
Yeah... yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]
The voice of racism preaching the gospel is devilish
A fake church called the prophet Muhammad a terrorist
Forgetting God is not a religion, but a spiritual bond
And Jesus is the most quoted prophet in the Qu'ran
They bombed innocent people, tryin' to murder Saddam
When you gave him those chemical weapons to go to war with Iran
This is the information that they hold back from Peter Jennings
Cause Condoleeza Rice is just a new age Sally Hemmings
I break it down with critical language and spiritual anguish
The Judas I hang with, the guilt of betraying Christ
You murdered and stole his religion, and painting him white
Translated in psychologically tainted philosophy
Conservative political right wing, ideology
Glued together sloppily, the blasphemy of a nation
Got my back to the wall, cause I'm facin' assassination
Guantanamo Bay, federal incarceration
How could this be, the land of the free, home of the brave?
Indigenous holocaust, and the home of the slaves
Corporate America, dancin' offbeat to the rhythm
You really think this country, never sponsored terrorism?
Human rights violations, we continue the saga
El Savador and the contras in Nicaragua
And on top of that, you still wanna take me to prison
Just cause I won't trade humanity for patriotism

It's like MK-ULTRA, controlling your brain
Suggestive thinking, causing your perspective to change
They wanna rearrange the whole point of view of the ghetto
The fourth branch of the government, want us to settle
A bandana full of glittering, generality
Fighting for freedom and fighting terror, but what's reality?
Read about the history of the place that we live in
And stop letting corporate news tell lies to your children

[Verse 2]
Flow like the blood of Abraham through the Jews and the Arabs
Broken apart like a woman's heart, abused in a marriage
The brink of holy war, bottled up, like a miscarriage
Embedded correspondents don't tell the source of the tension
And they refuse to even mention, European intervention
Or the massacres in Jenin, the innocent screams
U.S. manufactured missles, and M-16's
Weapon contracts and corrupted American dreams
Media censorship, blocking out the video screens
A continent of oil kingdoms, bought for a bargain
Democracy is just a word, when the people are starvin'
The average citizen, made to be, blind to the reason
A desert full of genocide, where the bodies are freezin'
And the world doesn't believe that you fightin' for freedom
Cause you fucked the Middle East, and gave birth to a demon
It's open season with the CIA, bugging my crib
Trapped in a ghetto region like a Palestinian kid
Where nobody gives a f**k whether you die or you live
I'm tryin' to give the truth, and I know the price is my life
But when I'm gone they'll sing a song about Immortal Technique
Who beheaded the President, and the princes and sheiks
You don't give a f**k about us, I can see through your facade
Like a fallen angel standing in the presence of God
B*tch niggaz scared of the truth, when it looks at you hard

It's like MK-ULTRA, controlling your brain
Suggestive thinking, causing your perspective to change
They wanna rearrange the whole point of view in the ghetto
The fourth branch of the government, want us to settle
A bandana full of glittering, generality
Fighting for freedom and fighting terror, but what's reality?
Martial law is coming soon to the hood, to kill you
While you hanging your flag out your project window

The fourth branch of the government AKA the media
Seems to now have a retirement plan for ex-military officials
As if their opinion was at all unbiased
A machine shouldn't speak for men
So shut the f**k up you mindless drone!
And you know it's serious
When these same media outfits are spending millions of dollars on a PR campaign
To try to convince you they're fair and balanced
When they're some of the most ignorant, and racist people
Giving that type of mentality a safe haven
We act like we share in the spoils of war that they do
We die in wars, we don't get the contracts to make money off 'em afterwards!
We don't get weapons contracts, nigga!
We don't get cheap labor for our companies, nigga!
We are cheap labor, nigga!
Turn off the news and read, nigga!
Read... read... read...

Immortal Technique

I recently got an album by the rapper called Immortal Technique...
To say I think the man Is HYPE does not begin to cut it, His Social Commentary is matched only by Maybe Nas.
I mean this Man is on another level.
This is REAL rap. Social commentary at its finest, Not only does he deal with the typical Black American Issues but this man touches everything From Human rights to the Media to the Death to religion. The man "Keeps It Real" an just too many levels.
Sigh.... I can’t even express how bad this man is u all need to check his album out.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Playing pan

All this time have been playing pan I realized I have in general been playing too loud (ye ye whatever guys, very funny :p )
It is an interesting concept that came about when KK, while teaching us to play a song made the comment that the lead should never strive to play above those supporting, but rather those supporting should “make a space” for the lead.

It was an enormous revelation that had me cringing. My volume typically for playing songs ranged from loud to louder, depending on my enthusiasm for the song. Now, however, I find that songs actually sound better. Even more embarrassing is that I am also realizing quite often when a song sounded noisy it was my pan that was playing too loudly and not others :s … ah well we cant all be perfect.

All this was re-enforced even further by ‘musical Director’ or whoever he was from “Skiffle Bunch” that was running a pan workshop the other day. He pointed how in a particular song how all the other sections played behind whatever section had the lead, no matter the volume they played at…. Again I cringed.

The sad part is this was not the first time this has been mentioned to me, but for some reason when KK was talking to the band it finally hit me. Now songs sound way better at least when I am playing. The flip side to this of course is the fact that now I have to focus on my control… this automatically eliminates much of my bouncing and moving around the pan… not cool.
Fortunately B and I had a talk about antics around the pan a while back, and what she said was that if we are going to doing antics when on a playout, or performing anywhere for that matter, we should practice these antics so that they come naturally to us….. easier said than done.
I realize that once my feet start moving my control is reduced. I am pleased to say it is not as bad as before, but I have a long way to go.

What strikes me though, Is that I remember looking at video of a previous concert where myself and Mark2 were playing. For the whole concert while playing I thought we were doing the same moves, but on looking on the vid I realize M2’s moves were much more subdued…. Maybe that’s why he was the best player on the section?

In any case, the time I can easily dedicate to pan has been greatly reduced and I find it hard to discipline myself to find that extra time for the panyard, but I am working on it. Sigh.. you never really know what you have till its gone, at a time such as this when I am ready to really work on improving my technique the people who use to try to help me (to whom I rarely listened) are not around, ah well such is life.

The Skiffle bunch really impressed me and has made me feel a need to really improve my playing skills. With respect to being section leader HA! Boy I tell you
But that is for another blog we’ll see how it turns out

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Why I choose BBC

Below are the feeds I get from CNN and BBC.
Now when a International News station cant find anything other than a “Polygamist's car packed with cash, wigs, phones” to report on then...
· Ernesto moves over Florida - 2 hours ago
· Troops charged in Iraqi killing face hearings - 31 minutes ago
· FAA: Kentucky tower staffing violated rules - 4 hours ago
· SUV hits 14 people in 20 minute rampage, 1 dead - 53 minutes ago
· Polygamist's car packed with cash, wigs, phones - 10 hours ago

BBC News | News Front Page | World Edition

· Olmert firm on Lebanon blockade - one hour ago
· 'Military' killed Lanka aid staff - one hour ago
· Iraq bomb attacks claim 44 lives - one hour ago
· Many Zimbabweans still homeless - 8 hours ago
· Hackers steal AT&T data - 2 hours ago

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

The computer that is our brain

My last couple of trips to Mobay has allowed me to analyze a very interesting aspect the human mind;

the “Autopilot”

Now as the name suggest this refers to the ability of the brain to take over numerous activities without the need for much intervention from the conscious mind. In fact provided the knowledge on how to perform a task has been stored in memory, the conscious mind can leave any of a myriad of tasks at any time and the brain will seamlessly assume control.

This was first highlighted when I found my mind wondering while driving behind a truck. I began to realize that I was jolted out of whatever thought or reverie I was having whenever there was a change in speed of the vehicle. It was as if my consciousness gave my autopilot functions a set of conditions that were to held and if at any point these changed then my consciousness was to be handed back control.

This totally amazed me. I mean the programming that is behind this brain of ours, not to mention the hardware, is totally mind-boggling. The amount of variables that the brain is required to keep track of for any given task is staggering and the way in which it can slip in and out of control with any pause whatsoever is astounding.

My analysis of the phenomenon has lead me to also realize that the auto functions of our brain are much better than the conscious mind.

A perfect example can be seen when one is doing a performance, usually one is told not to think about anything, in other words do not allow the conscious mind to interfere.

It’s like a personalized computer really. It is precise and very accurate, however the rules of G.I.G.O apply (i.e. Garbage In Garbage Out).

If the conscious mind leaves stupid instructions then the Brain will do the best it can, but at the end of the day it can only do what we tell it to do.

Interestingly enough, it is equipped with a number of bells and whistles to alert the Conscious mind when it is about to, or has performed what it has determined to be and incorrect course of action… it usually is right.

These thought have lead me to think about what computers of the future should be able to do. If they were able to communicate directly to this Auto function module of our brain, the implications would be staggering. The brain could manage and track more variables more efficiently than ever before and maximize performance in even the simplest of tasks.

I mean all interactions between machine and Autopilot have been through the medium of the conscious mind, but time and time again we have seen the conscious mind is not always the most precise, inefficient or sensible machine known to mankind. Removing this medium allows for both the Conscious mind and Auto functions to perform at optimum levels.

In any case that’s just me rambling, but the thought if a synthetic minicomputers fusing with the synapses in your brain is amazing the implications and the benefits are wondrous. Of course the negative possibilities are always there and have been explored in by some Sci-Fi writers most notably the japanimie series “Ghost In the shell” but that is for another blog. Till next time see ya.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

things to say when you want to sleep on te couch

DISCLAIMER: To my SO/GF; the following does not in any way reflect how I feel about you or our relationship. I just thought that such sayings were dispicable and i wanted to warn men that such thoughts and ideas are wrong.

How many men does it take to open a beer?

None. It should be open when she brings it
Why is a Laundromat a really bad place to pick up a woman?
Because a woman who can't even afford a washing machine will probably never be able to support you.
Why do women have smaller feet than men?

It's one of those "evolutionary things" that allows
them to stand closer to the kitchen sink.
How do you know when a woman is about to say something smart?

When she starts a sentence with "A man once told me..."
How do you fix a woman's watch?

You don't. There is a clock on the oven.
Why do men fart more than women?

Because women can't shut up long enough to
build up the required pressure.
If your dog is barking at the back door and your wife is yelling at the front door, who do you let in first?

The dog, of course. He'll shut up once you let him in.
What's worse than a Male Chauvinist Pig?

A woman who won't do what she's told
I married a Miss Right.

I just didn't know her first name was Always.
Scientists have discovered a food that diminishes
a woman's sex drive by 90%.

It's called a Wedding Cake.

Why do men die before their wives?
They want to.

Women will never be equal to men until they can
walk down the street with a bald head and a beer
gut, and still think they are sexy.
In the beginning, God created the earth and rested.
Then God created Man and rested.
Then God created Woman.
Since then, neither God nor Man has rested.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

A stalwart

The following is jkust a excerpt fropm a CNN news item, it speeks for itself.

Castro, who will be 80 on August 13, made fun of his long-time ideological nemesis the United States in a speech in which he said more Cubans are reaching 100 thanks to the social services of his Communist government.

"But, our little neighbors to the north should not fear, I am not planning to be in office at that age," the left-wing firebrand said.

Castro spoke to 100,000 people at a rally in the eastern city of Bayamo, Cuba, on the anniversary of the assault he led on a military garrison in 1953 that sparked his revolution.

The Cuban leader has outlasted nine U.S. presidents and survived CIA assassination plots, invasion attempts and the collapse of his Soviet bloc benefactors.

Thursday, July 20, 2006


It appears the US ‘Intelligence’… Yes the same one that was certain that there were weapons of mass destruction in Iraq… has said that Iranians were present at the missile tests that North Korea carried out the other day.

I am now scared… Iran, not Syria, is next on Bush’s agenda. I guess they have more oil :s

You know the sad part is they are doing the same thing they did with Iraq. I wonder if they’ll be able to fool the American people twice. In any case they will always have ‘Gay marriage’ as their trump card. That is a greater threat to America, apparently, than ‘I am a war president’ Bush.

Any way, what is this method you ask?

Well, with Iraq you start by making vague links between 9/11 and Saddam and blur the lines between speculation and actual fact. Put enough talk of death, doom and gloom until your population thinks they are at church hearing about the end of days, and then offer them this glorious opportunity to destroy a ‘Nexus point of evil’, an opportunity to deal a blow to Satan and his minions.
Boy did that work… well… at least initially

In any case the Iran Situation is similar… in fact this time its even easier cause now you have the BBC and CNN backing your story.

1. (fact) Iran declares they will begin enriching Uranium

2. (fact) Nkorea Tests long rang missiles

3. (US intelligence) therefore they are working together (note: no actual evidence needed)

You see If (a = b) and (b = c), because they are in the same alphabet q = a,b and c

Impeccable logic and a great excuse to get more oil wells ;)

Now I will not be surprised if it turns out that this report is true, but I’ll wait till BBC tells me so.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Will it ever end?

And so the never ending war Between Israel and the rest of the Middle east resumes/Continues.

This senseless and pointless suffering over land and religion has made me officially tired of hearing about women and children dieing in the name of some petty dispute not worth anyone’s life…


I am actually upset over this entire debacle, it irks me to know that this escalating violence will only lead to the continuation of this sad cycle of violence.

I look at this and other conflicts across the world, add to that domestic disputes and crime and you wonder about this race of savages called humans.

Signed: Tired & Frustrated

Monday, July 17, 2006

Time For Change

Ok the following is just me rambling, It started out as an simple essay, but turned into whatever you read below. It is an ongoing story and it is an intresting 'feeling' i have come accross in myself. It is not new yet it is very different this time because I am the one who has to initiate the change, to decide what the change will be. I am caught in a delima because I see how i can easily Do nothing and become stagnant, Something I fear. And so as I pass my through my quarter centry mark I begin to deliberate what change will I bring about in this life that is mine. I remember my uncle talking to me back in high school one day about how he felt about work, and looking back at it i realize now what he was talking about, what i hope is that in makeing these choices/changes I will fair better than he did.

Have you ever come to a point in your life that you begin to feel……

a slowing down of momentum,
a gathering of energies, almost like the a silence before the storm

Have you ever realized that you are coming to that point in your life..
Where You have utilized almost all the happiness you can gather from your current position

Have you ever slowly realized that it isn’t dawn any more, nor Noon
But rather it is Sunset
And that to see the sun you most now move, run, chase after it once more….

Have you ever felt the need to change approach slowly. Silently and methodically removing the anchors that hold your happiness in place at this place……

Have you ever felt a gnawing fear that this change could mean loosing some of which is dear to you
Yet you know to not embrace the change could mean loosing more, ie yourself

Signed To Be Continued...

Monday, July 10, 2006

Rasta In Court

The views exprest in the following post in no way reflect the actual views of the owner of this blog. I just got the email and thought it was funn.... err I mean dispicable.

A Rasta and his Empress are in court getting a divorce. The problem was, who should get custody of the child?

The Empress jumped up and said, "Your Honor. I brought the child into this world with pain and labor. She should be in my custody"

The judge turns to the dread and says, "What do you have to say in the matter?"

The Rasta sat for a while contemplating ... then slowly rose and said, "Yow ... your Honor, If I and I put a dollar in a vending machine and a Pepsi come out, a who fa Pepsi ... 'I and I' or the machine?

Juggling ones time

Juggling is hard and after a while it just makes sense to pick a ball and let the others drop, and hope you can pick them up after.

Thursday, July 06, 2006


Boy President bush has been running amok and acting like he is a International Bad man, the Original Global GANGSTA .

But recently a likkle short man from Asia has reminded the big bad USA that he is the REAL
Gangsta aroun ere.
After serious wrangling in 2002 - 2003 about it Uranium enrichment program.... hold up I need to explain this story some more.

This is around the same time Bush is accusing the Iraq of weapons of mass destruction and has decided to invade.. seeing this happening Kim decides to announce that he is developing nuclear weapons. HA! Now if all was fair the US would give the Nkoreans the same set of threats but instead they tried to reach some back door deals.
Why? u ask, that’s because when a real Gangsta challenges a wangsta, the wangsta must take a seat. The US knew better than to challenge this asian mad man. Added to that, the US has not really forgotten the "Forgotten War" when The Koreans handed them their Asses barbequed on a platter.

Anyway back to the present.......
So after reaching some agreement back then, which basically was that The Koreans Told the US if you don’t give me what I want I will develop my weapons of mass destruction, the Koreans have announced and launched test missiles. The scary beauty of this is;

1. they announce they will test missiles able to reach the US, The US and there allies go up in arms crying and beating gums. The Nkoreans are silent

2. they launch 6 missiles that splash into the sea west of Japan, the US allies beat gums even louder (i am sure they bleeding now) Nkorea remains silent

3. They Launch 1 more 12 hours later. The Outcry from the US and their allies are defining.
Koreans finally speak stating that they will continue test and will use force if necessary to defend their right to do so...... US and Allies have been quietly mumbling ever since, talking of crying to the UN security council.

Now having said all this I am worried, I do believe Kim is a mad man, He is trying to extort more aid out of the International community because his Country is in a bad state, but what happens when the US and Allies Decide to stop?
Worse yet what if China and Russia stop supporting them? What will he do with the weapons??????

The "JPS runs most of my life" attitude.

Yesterday I was privy to an intresting conversation between two managers. They were commenting on the message from the new CEO for our company.
One boss was saying that he was unsure of tone used. Apprantly to him, it gave the impression that he wanted employees to give JPS their lives.

Both managers were lamenting that ever since they have entered the company JPS has almost taken top priority in their lives, where 12 - 15 hour work days were and still are the norm (weekends are included in this).
The problem with this however, as they pointed out, was that their families suffered for it. One made a snide comment that he hopes the younger generation cominig up will know better, but ever since my arrival here, I have reralized the culture in some departments in JPS are such that working less that 10 -12 hours is leaving work early. I remember last November when I told my boss that I was going to stop working on Saturdays, although he said Ok it was clear he was not very happy. As it turns out I am slowly returning to my 7 day work week.
The truth is there is that much work to do, there is no break, no let up. There are allways a million and one things to do here and as such this; "JPS runs most of my life" attitude has developed amongst most of the workers, especially managers.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Rambling about psyche

Have you ever had one of those days you look in the mirror and you see a punk (actually the word I want to use is more explicit).

I find such moments interesting; I suspect I am not alone in experiencing such emotions. But it makes the paradoxes that is the ‘human psyche’ even more fascinating.

Taking myself as an example; I suspect that my ego is over inflated.
On one hand I think the world of myself while at the same time I possess such a plethora of insecurities I find it hard to reconcile the contradiction that is my persona.

In light of this, I have learned to realize that each individual I meet is multidimensional, where number of dimensions tend to infinity.
The problem is, there is no way for me to really appreciate this. You see, if I can’t figure myself out, there is no way I can begin to see, let alone understand, all the aspects that make up a person.


Having said this, my SO/GF has said that I like to ‘psycho analyze people’, I beg to differ, the truth is ‘humans’ fascinate me, the way we think, we move, what motivates us what drives us, our action and in-actions is very interesting to see. At the same time much of what I see in humans (including myself) I do not like. That, I am sure, has come out in my blogging.

This fascination of how and why humans tick has lead me to see the truth that is the borg.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

The Remedy

Well I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes, I cannot make them go away
Cause you were born on the fourth of July
Freedom ring
Well something on the surface it stinks
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
To say that you deserve this
And what kind of God would serve this
We will cure this dirty old disease
Well if you've gots the poison, I've gots the remedy

The remedy is the experience, this is a dangerous liaison
I says the comedy is that it's serious
This is a strange enough new play on words
I said, the tragedy is how you're going to spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
Well, it all amounts to nothing
In the end

I won't worry my life away
I won't worry my life away

Well I heard two men, talking on the radio
In a crossfire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
Or they were counting down the ways to stab the brother in the
Be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, with a minty fresh death-breath
Is sure to outlast this catastrophe
Dance with me
'Cause if you’ve gots the poison, I've gots the remedy

The remedy is the experience, this is a dangerous liaison
I says the comedy is that it's serious
This is a strange enough new play on words
I said, the tragedy is how you're going to spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When, it all amounts to nothing
In the end

I won't worry my life away
I won't worry my life away

When I fall in love
I take my time, there's no need to hurry
When I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun, but I'm still going to shine
And I'll tell you why

Because the remedy is the experience, this is a dangerous liaison
I says the comedy is that it's serious
This is a strange enough new play on words
I said, the tragedy is how you're going to spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When, it all amounts to nothing
In the end

I won't worry my life away
I won't worry my life away

Cause I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
Won’t worry my life away

Wake Up - Alanis Morissette

Wake Up

You like snow but only if it's warm
You like rain but only if it's dry
No sentimental value to the rose that fell on your floor
No fundamental excuse for the granted I'm taken for

'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you, to you

You like pain but only if it doesn't hurt too much
And you sit, and you wait, to receive
There's an obvious attraction
To the path of least resistence in your life
There's an obvious aversion no amount of my insistance
Could make you try tonight

'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you to you to you to you to you
There's no love no money no thrill anymore

There's an apprehensive naked little trembling boy
With his head in his hands
There's an underestimated and impatient little girl
Raising her hand

But it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you, to you

Get up get up get up off of it
Get up get up get up off of it
Get out get outta here enough already
Get up get up get up off of it
Wake up

SOs/GFs and EXs

There is a new Blog that i have been following:
"The Company Bitch"
Recently she blogged about her boyfreind and his ex, Now this is not the first time I have heard situations like this, my Q is however; Is it that these women are just unrealistically paranoid, or is it that they know men too well??????

Friday, June 16, 2006

Battle within

I know I am not the center of the universe and that the world does not revolve around me but............. Its hard to remember that sometimes.

Thursday, June 15, 2006


I am now SICK AND TIRED OF THIS (***insert expletive here***)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! project

Bad Mood

Have you ever been in one of those mood\s where you just want to say “---- the world don’t ask me for ---- but you know that you have to be careful because that attitude would push your closest friends away. Added to that, you can’t really say anything because that will only make them feel they need to cheer you up and you really are not in the mood.
It is extremely hard to keep a cheerful face to protect the people you love the most from the nasty mood that wants nothing more than to tell them to .......
The worst part is you know this mood wont last for more than 24 hrs at most and as such these 24 hrs get extremely dragged out, as you fight to control you words and hope you wont say anything to irrevocably damage your relationships.

Having said all this, as you can tell I was in such a mood the other day, But what struck me was the fact that if the shoe was on the other foot, I too would want to ‘cheer’ up any friend that is really depressed. I too have that nasty habit of just hanging around when they probably just want to be left alone.

The difficulty really lies in determining when to just leave well alone and when not to. There are those who make no bones about telling people to just go away
But for most of my friends I often ignore such statements depending on how serious I deem them to be….. hmmmmm

Have to run, much to be considered here though

Tuesday, May 30, 2006


It is my belief that communication is one of, if not the, most important part of a relationship. However having said this I have learned that communication has three parts. These are;
1) Express
2) Listen
3) Act

For most people, myself included, part 1 to be the easiest to follow. Of course, others also know that Part 2 is eminently essential for communication to work.
Where I have faltered in the past, however, is the part that makes “communication” really work to strengthen a relationship. After expressing your self and hearing what the other has to say, the next step is to act on this exchange of information, setting in motion events/actions that will strengthen the foundations of ones relationship. Strengthen your foundations enough… then the sky will be the limit.

Aside: Have you ever had someone in your life that constantly makes you want to be a better person. I think if you ever find such a person u should hold on to them, I certainly plan to.

Monday, May 29, 2006


Today was a day of thought and reflection, and much of what I found had been discovered before, hmmm……

Initiative # N+1 ?
why bother?

Signed: Deliberately cryptic

Thursday, May 25, 2006

After some study.

As most people know I am fascinated by the 'condition' that most of us have known as being 'HUMAN'.

I have found it intriguing to observe how this 'form' of existence brings about interesting situations especially when in contact with another sentient beings of a similar 'persuasion'.

Needless to say, my primary subject has been myself, and today I have come across an interesting realization.

"Ones mindset can influence ones perception"

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Lyme 2006 thoughts and thanks

Again we have come to the end of another lyme.
I will not bother to rehash the pain of the near 4 HOURS spent on Mount Russo. Instead I would wish to big up some key people.

To the members of the Lyme committee, well done. I think for some reason this lyme was slightly more taxing on us, and we pulled through.

Like last year and even more so this year, the really creative brains behind the whole operation was Le Anne’s. Believe me guys, without her the lyme would have been a boring fiasco. Her input basically shaped the Lyme (at least the original plan).

I have always had respect for our manager, but after this lyme, it has reached new levels, I am near in awe of this guys organizational skills. The way he effortlessly kept on top of everything while seeming to remain in ‘windows’ mode the whole time is amazing. For this year’s lyme I would say Richard was the organizational, and logistics mastermind behind it all (the part that went according to plan at least). I shudder to think what it would have been like without him. I can safely say I would feel safe in any project he manages.

The New kid on the block, Kerise, was almost like a glue holding the team together, they way she facilitated the 2 juggernauts (RC an LR) of the team was amazing. Ever willing and ever ready. Believe me that was no easy task, without her we all would have burnt out a long time ago. I am looking forward to her being on next year’s committee. She is a person you can truly depend on.

Aside from this I have to big up Adrian, for helping me set up the rooms after we reached. Believe me if he hadn’t taken it upon himself to help out, I think I would have gone crazy. U have no idea how grateful I am for your help, but nuff thanks.

Of course I could not finish this blog without thanking mummy. Without her we all would have starved. All will say is a deep heartfelt thanks. Like any mom who seems to be able to deal with and fix any problem, Mummy Mel has saved us too many times to count. Her seemingly inexhaustible stores of energy basically carried us through this weekend making sure we were all well fed, even those who ‘missed the boat’. Again I shudder to think what weekend would have been without her. Nuff Nuff Thanks and Respect.

To the rest of you guys who made this weekend work nuff thanks, it turned out to be a decent lyme, not the best I have ever been on, but definitely a good one none the less, looking forward to next year. I suspect I may take a break from the summer lyme committee then, not totally decided yet, we will see.

Aside: I propose to have “Suss Master” removed from the list of vibes awards as I believe we have serious problems with ballot stuffing where that vote is concerned

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Christ like?

I have always looked at with a little envy at those people have a driving passion for Christ. Those people who will go to church every day of the week and be glad they did. To them it is only a mild sacrifice.

Growing up with a father and 2 uncles as pastors it I have learned such fervor would have made my life much easier. I look at my parents and to an extent my siblings, and find myself wishing to feel as passionately about it as they feel.

What I am most passionate about is pan, going to practice 3 days a week is not a sacrifice. Actually it’s more like a break. Like I told a friend a few years ago, pan provides for me an outlet, a chance to relax and de-stress.

For many years I used to pray & hope that a mirror of my passion for pan would find somehow find its way into my spiritual life, but alas that has not been the case.

Interestingly enough, there has been an individual who has entered an integral part of my life that has taught me a large part of ones Christian walk is sacrifice. This is a hard concept to adapt simply because I am a very lazy person and sacrifice requires discipline. Quite often I am fascinated to see how easy it is for me to make it to work almost every Sunday, yet finding my way to church once a month requires a Herculean effort.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not a workaholic, far from it, I just happen to like what I do.

Now I am at a point where growth with respect to my spiritual life is at a crawl, and it seems almost impossible to work up the energy to get it to move any faster.


When a male and a female decide to form a unit, referred to society as a couple, it is interesting to see how they adjust to this new change in ‘status’. As with other such concepts in society, relationships come with their own set of rules and guidelines.

Same game, new faces

As always the human race, in its never-ending quest to prove to whomever that its capacity for barbarism is unparalleled, has entered a new phase of conflict.

Looking throughout history we see wars and ‘conflicts’ (difference being fewer military deaths, collateral damage usually remains the same though), constantly cropping up to satisfy our apparent need for unbridled violence.

In recent times the world has seen the ‘Cold War’ where two countries stacked up on enough weapons to wipe themselves of the face of the planet, while playing deadly games of chess with third world countries, where young people were/are recruited to fight in ‘idealistic wars’.

A major part of this is fueled by the concept that some ideals are worth dying for.

Now, it can be argued that the most precious thing you own is your life, and it is yours to spend as you wish. There are times, however, I think that the idea that one would lay down ones life for a ‘belief’, an idea, a un-quantifiable thought in ones head is ludicrous.

I honestly believe the need for such extreme views stem from the need we as humans have for cramming our own beliefs down each other’s throats. In other words, we believe our beliefs are such that they cannot co-exist with others that differ too far from ours.

I hear the more religious folks beginning to get uncomfortable

Now the beliefs that seem to spark the most conflict are those that directly relate to power. In the pass 50 plus years they have been based on methods of governance and, most recently, religion.

On an aside, it is amazing how religion seems to be a recurring reason for conflict throughout the history of our so-called civilization. It is almost as if it is a great ‘filler reason’ until we find the next ‘good cause’ to start killing each other over.

Now that the cold war is over and ‘capitalism’ has won out, the ever-reliable filler has stepped in. It is interesting however to see how these same pawns from the last ‘war’ are the ones who are the front runners for this one.

Aspects of the international Muslim community have seen it fit to bring their fight/war to the world. I must say it is only fair. The western world has already used them, not to mention the fact that, there was no one to blog about the crusades back in the day when ‘Christian Extremist’ felt that Muslims should be wiped of the face of the earth.

There is a confusion however, I seem unable to pinpoint what it is exactly these extremist want. I mean, there is always a cause for the moment such as Iraq, Palestine and Iran, but what is their long-term goal. When history books are written 70 yrs from now what will they say the ‘terrorist’ (not Bush this time) wanted?

OK ran out of time. This post is to be continued.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Zuma Acquitted

Here it is we have a prominent politician charged with rape. The nature of such situations is such that these people have enough wealth and power to make any conviction difficult.

Now, I am not saying I think he was guilty, I am just saying I don’t know.

For the victim (if she was not lying) this must be a terrible moment, the mere act of going through with this trial must have took a Herculean effort. To know that the entire world knows about this dark moment in your life is something that I admire her strength and courage.

On the other hand I must look at the possibility that this could all be an attempt by Zuma’s opponents to smear his character, in such a case this trial would not be too hard, I sure she would have been adequately compensated.

In either case, in all the press coverage, I have yet to see or hear in any news report the face or name of the victim, yet such is the nature of the media, she does not matter, never did really, she is just a minor player on a much ‘grander’ stage.

In a program on BBC a caller made a comment to the effect that we should not forget that most news agencies are profit making organizations, and as such there ‘agenda’ and focus will be geared towards that end.

Monday, May 08, 2006


I have taken to thinking that I am able to look at human interactions (whether or not they involve myself) from a perspective ‘outside of the box’. It provides an interesting view on the little rituals that we as human beings go through in the name of ‘civilized’ (term used loosely) behavior.

Such an attitude has its drawbacks however, as it gives you the illusion that you are the only one who notices these things. The fact is, although my testosterone bolstered pride would have me believe that I am very proficient in understanding the nuances of human behavior, there are those who are far more versed at it than I am, and they use this knowledge far more proficiently than I. Not only that, but they do so without thinking.

In light of this, I am required to ‘keep’ myself in check, lest someone do so for me. Much easier said than done.
For now I have gained a new appreciation for the irony of the country western song that states:

“Oh Lord its hard to be humble, when you’re perfect in every way”

Monday, May 01, 2006

Distribution Of wealth

Did you know the the richest 5th of the worls population has 80% of the worlds wealth
and the lowest 5th has 1%.

Long Live capitalism.


I put it to you the accumulation of wealth is the root of 99.9% of the evil in the world today the rest is just insanity.

President Mugabe has, for the last couple of years, been systematically driving his country into the ground. He has amassed himself a huge amount of wealth while the avg. citizen suffers greatly (HUGE UNDERSTATEMENT). The country has an inflation rate of approx. 1000%.

Now when I hear stories like that and I hear how the Chinese have been supporting him economically, and have benefited by winning a number of state contracts. When I hear even further that their weapons are being sold throughout Africa, fueling conflicts all across the region. I feel helpless and hopeless. It pains me to know they are doing the same thing America did (and Does) and will prob. see the same result: World Super Power

There are times I look at the human race and I wonder why would any god put up with our existence. For every good deed done there are thousands of atrocities that go unstopped or unpunished.
I look at Muslim extremist who find it ok to take life indiscriminately for a ‘cause’, and I cant condemn them simply because My religion has already had its ‘Crusade’.

As an ‘intelligent’ life form, I find us humans severely lacking.

Learning the art Of Human Interaction (lesson 1)

Timing is one of the most important things to learn when trying to master 'Human Interaction'. Almost anything can be said when the timing is right. But one must be careful to overdo it If you are given an open use it efficiently and not in access less the window of opportunity be closed again.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Extremely important advice (Not Original but important enough)

Extremely important advice and recommendations to be passed on to wives,

girlfriends, fianc├ęs, mothers, sisters, daughters, etc. (to all women in

general) These rules are to be communicated prior to the World Cup in

June/July this year...


1. From 9 June to 9 July 2006, you should read the sports section of the

newspaper so that you are aware of what is going on regarding the World Cup,

and that way you will be able to join in the conversations. If you fail to

do this, then you will be looked at in a bad way, or you will be totally

ignored DO NOT complain about not receiving any attention.

2. During the World Cup, the television is mine, at all times, without any

exceptions. If you even take a glimpse of the remote control, you will lose

it (your eye).

3. If you have to pass by in front of the TV during a game, I don't mind, as

long as you do it crawling on the floor and without distracting me. If you

decide to stand nude in front of the TV, make sure you put clothes on right

after because if you catch a cold, I wont have time to take you to the

doctor or look after you during the World Cup month.

4. During the games I will be blind, deaf and mute, unless I require a

refill of my drink or something to eat. You are out of your mind if you

expect me to listen to you, open the door, answer the telephone, or pick up

the baby that just fell from the second wont happen.

5. It would be a good idea for you to keep at least 2 six packs in the

fridge at all times, as well as plenty of things to nibble on, and please do

not make any funny faces to my friends when they come over to watch the

games. In return, you will be allowed to use the TV between 12am and 6am,

unless they replay a good game that I missed during the day.

6. Please, please, please!! if you see me upset because one of my teams is

losing, DO NOT say "get over it, its only a game", or "don't worry, they'll

win next time". If you say these things, you will only make me angrier and I

will love you less. Remember, you will never ever know more about football

than me and your so called "words of encouragement" will only lead to a

break up or divorce.

7. You are welcome to sit with me to watch one game and you can talk to me

during halftime but only when the commercials are on, and only if the

halftime score is pleasing me. In addition, please note I am saying "one"

game, hence do not use the World Cup as a nice cheesy excuse to "spend time


8. The replays of the goals are very important. I don't care if I have seen

them or I haven't seen them, I want to see them again. Many times.

9. Tell your friends NOT to have any babies, or any other child related

parties or gatherings that requires my attendance because:

a) I will not go,

b) I will not go, and

c) I will not go.

10. But, if a friend of mine invites us to his house on a Sunday to watch a

game, we will be there in a flash.

11. The daily World Cup highlights show on TV every night is just as

important as the games themselves. Do not even think about saying "but you

have already seen this...why don't you change the channel to something we

can all watch??", the reply will be: "Refer to Rule #2 of this list".

12. And finally, please save your expressions such as "Thank God the World

Cup is only every 4 years". I am immune to these words, because after this

comes the Champions League, Italian League, Spanish League, Premier League,

etc etc.

Thank you for your cooperation.


Men of the World

Thursday, April 27, 2006


I figure My follow IT professionals out there will understand why I need to do this.
This is a list of all the development teams who have produced Programs that have driven me to the point of wanting to kill them.

1. Microsoft Development Team for All Microsoft Products
2. Oracle DBMS for forgetting the concept of programs being User friendly
3. Dameware Developers for a constantly kicking me off ppls computers in the middle of critical operations.

This currently Is my top three at the moment
The teams on the list may be shifted depending on my mood on any given day. I must note that Microsoft holds a permanent seat on the top of this list however, As my co-worker puts it, they force us into a love hate relationship.Even though they provide the most user friendly products on the market, THEY NEVER WORK consistently.

In any case, till the next update this has been the first Installment of the DEVELOPER HIT LIST, shutdown commencing.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Note To Self

This is an exerpt from a discussion I had with a freind:


freind says:
we are having parent consultation tomorrow
freind says:
but mi sure sey di parents who me waan talk to, not coming anywhere
The Seeker says:
The Seeker says:
The Seeker says:
why ?
freind says:
because thats how it is
freind says:
the parents of the good students will come but the other no come dem some'n deh


Note To Self: Should I ever come to have children be proactive in taking an intrest in their education

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Another Disturbance in the Force

The Greate Jedi Master Steve Jobs has once again caused significant Ripples in the Force.

Recently It was announced that soon Apple Computers would be able to run (*** insert darth vader theme Music here ***) MS Windows.

The South American Revolution (part 1)


Who is this guy? Hero, Visionary, Delusional, Idealist or Realist. There are many words to describe this man, and I have yet to pass my verdict on him. His radical belief in turning back to the path of ‘Socialism’ has many in the international community very antsy.
Fortunately for him Venezuela has oil, and as a result they cannot be treated lightly. As a result I do believe the US will eventually take steps to remove him from power.

Now, those of you who have been listening to me ramble of late would have heard me mention from time to time that I am becoming, or rather, I have become very disenfranchised with the Capitalistic system.
Watching Hugo Chavez at work I feel like we are back in the days of the Feudal system where the proletariat were beginning to rebel against the poor distribution of wealth between themselves and the bourgeoisie. I have to admit, capitalism is much better than Feudalism as it allows for some upward mobility. The truth is, however, this is extremely limited, and it does not change that fact that the distribution of wealth is as skewed as ever.
Now we’re having obscenely rich and poor, only difference there is a larger collection of people who fit in the Middle group.

We are fast approaching a time where there will be a shift in ‘Social Systems’ and whether or not Mr. Chavez is going to lead the charge is yet to be seen. In fact whether or not ‘Socialism’ or even if the dreaded “Communism” will be the path to take is still to be decided. The sad part is, this ‘revolution’ may die quite quickly. Even though throughout South America the Proletariat are making their voices heard via democratic means. As the President Of Bolivia pointed out, the real power and money still lies with the Wealthy, Governments can’t do it alone. All have to work together and it is clear that that will be unlikely.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Kingston Trip

I did My first Solo Trip To Kingston, I will tell you this If you really want to let your car go, Sunday is the best day to travel, not that I was speeding or anything...... I was just saying that IF u wanted to.... Because I i don’t REALLY want to..... So I wouldn’t REALLY know........cause I’m just speaking Hypothetically

There was much more to speak about the trip but, I've forgotten most of it. I have learned that Redbull is the best driving partner I ever had.......... Not that I was really tired at any point in the journey........... because I was fine....... really..... But hypothetically speaking if you did get tired, Red Bull works (y)....... well for me at least...... errrr. Hypothetically speaking

Taxi drivers are the same no matter where in Jamaica you go, Nuff said........ Woooooooosssssaaaaaaaahhhhhhh

OH Rasta! almost forgot
a most intresting incident.......
Picture this: U are at an atm in a Super market in Mobay and a police car pulls up just out of site of the entrance (however because of your angle you see exactly what’s happening while most ppl inside don’t) three plain closed police men jump out of the car with guns drawn and run up to the side of the super market, It looks like its strait out of a movie, the one peeking around the corner to see inside is asked by his partner 'yu si im?'.

Now Your Options are:

1. Wait and see what happens
2. Freeze
3. Calmly Cancel all transactions and leave

All I'll say is I bought my phone card and redbull in Ochi.

Thursday, March 09, 2006


Cars are expensive to own.


Ok Against My better judgment I have started to go the Socacize event at mass camp.
Needless to say night after night I am reminded that I am Seriously out of shape, with no sign of improvement.

In any case this blog is not about the 4 Sadist ladies (lead By Peppa) that run us poor innocent civilians into the ground twice a week, No this blog is about yesterdays session.

I must begin by saying that Oscar B is a seemingly innocent fun loving man, He has a beer belly and is not very young, one would assume that he was just at mass camp for fun of it, So when the she-devi.... err I mean our wonderful instructor Peppa called oscar B to stage, I thought; this will be quick.
I perked myself up and began to follow his instructions. Immediately I realized he had upped the tempo Considerabley and I was panting heaving after a few Seconds, But, I thought to myself; He’s a fat old man there is NOOOO way he could keep this up.

It Didn’t take too long for me to realize this man was more than meets the eye, I was drenched when he was still just warming up. The it dawned on me.
People it is my sad duty for me to tell you Oscar B is a terrorist. The Man Is a sadistic and ruthless Dictator who works for the Taliban, I am convinced He is Asama's Right hand man.
There is NOOOOOO Other explanation for the shear cruelty and brutality of the pain he inflicted on the innocent unsuspecting victims (myself included) @ mass camp. A mass Murder took place last night, I barely survived, as it is, feeling is only just returning to my limbs. This man Must be stopped, before he strikes again.

By the way: One of these day I am, going to blog about Peppa, but I am certain that every man that sees her sees a woman who could crush him easily between her br... errr I mean Biceps easily.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

More Equal than some

A really fascinating twist has occurred in the world’s political balance. As you all have no doubt heard, Hamas has won elections in Palestine. Now the world western Super powers are in arms, apparently 'Some people are more equal than others', or rather 'Some Democracies are more democratic than some'.

In any case one must realize the US sees hamas a threat to their interests in the Middle East and as such they will seek to protect it, and that is well within their rights. What I urks me though, is the fact that there seems to be no attempt to try a diplomatic approach,

Who’s the extremist now??????

In any case the Palestinian people have spoken, NO MORE US lackey’s, and I agree with them. I do not and will not support Terrorist acts, which is why I don’t support Bush, but just like I have to respect the Americans decision to elect a capitalistic terrorist, the world Should respect the Palestinians right to select a govt that has actually done much to help move the country Forward.

Friday, February 24, 2006

Insert Expletive here part 3

Ok Guys I am typing this one very slowly, because I am really upset. Please for those of you have not seen it go and watch 9/11 and then ask yourself why you think bush wants to hand over US ports to the UAE.

Believe me I am struggling no to through a fit like I did the Last Time But this man proves more and more that his primary concern is his own pocket, Believe me, I have far more respect for Richard Nixon than I do for Bush, because where as Bush is doing all this RUBBISH!!!!!!!! For personal gain, Nixon actually thought he knew what was best for America.

Guys I put it to you that bush is the greatest Terrorist/Capitalist (I cant tell the difference any more) the United States has ever seen.

Really You are at WAR with many Muslim fanatics from the Middle east and u are going to HAND OVER CONTROL of your ports to a country from the same area that has people, who are agree with Ji-Had, to say the least.

COME ONNNN!!!! At what Point do you stop to think that You cant go lining your pockets with the blood money of you own people you SWORE to protect. ITS BAD ENOUGH U ARE KILLING AND TORTURING just about everybody else, and when your allies tell you are wrong you change the name of you FRIES!!!!!


Honestly ppl he has got to go. Ask yourself this? Was stopping gay marriage worth it :S
Personally I don’t think so.