Ok the following is just me rambling, It started out as an simple essay, but turned into whatever you read below. It is an ongoing story and it is an intresting 'feeling' i have come accross in myself. It is not new yet it is very different this time because I am the one who has to initiate the change, to decide what the change will be. I am caught in a delima because I see how i can easily Do nothing and become stagnant, Something I fear. And so as I pass my through my quarter centry mark I begin to deliberate what change will I bring about in this life that is mine. I remember my uncle talking to me back in high school one day about how he felt about work, and looking back at it i realize now what he was talking about, what i hope is that in makeing these choices/changes I will fair better than he did.
Have you ever come to a point in your life that you begin to feel……
a slowing down of momentum,
a gathering of energies, almost like the a silence before the storm
Have you ever realized that you are coming to that point in your life..
Where You have utilized almost all the happiness you can gather from your current position
Have you ever slowly realized that it isn’t dawn any more, nor Noon
But rather it is Sunset
And that to see the sun you most now move, run, chase after it once more….
Have you ever felt the need to change approach slowly. Silently and methodically removing the anchors that hold your happiness in place at this place……
Have you ever felt a gnawing fear that this change could mean loosing some of which is dear to you
Yet you know to not embrace the change could mean loosing more, ie yourself
Signed To Be Continued...