In my final year at UWI, as many of you already know, I had 2 Jobs. My Job at DOMS had me looking forward to every day. My job with MSB however, often left me feel inadequate and a bit stupid. I kept expecting to have my boss call me over and say, “We are gonna have to let you go”. That was never the case. Yay
Of late JPS has been having me feel that way, Not Quite Stupid though. Now I just Feel Inadequate and unequal to the task.
The thing is, all the stuff I have to do I KNOW I can Do it, I probably take longer than your typical 'Super-Genius' Employee in our Division but I know I can, that’s good.
The bad part is ITS JUST TOO MUCH!
I can say Of the 4 major projects we have set out to do this year I have only completed 1.
IT IS RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!
And I know if I was given time to work on then individually, to properly plan how I would develop these Applications, then All would be well, But none of that is happening.
What has me most annoyed, Frustrated and AAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
There is nobody in this Company, especially my division, I can Talk to about it. Everybody in IS has an overflowing plate. But do they fall behind Deadlines. Often Times only completing a job a week or 2 after its Due.
In fact everybody gets home by 10 and 11 (the latest!), and work for a few hours on Sat. Not Me… I typically have to work till 12 and the whole day Sunday into at least 10pm before I can Begin to see progress. Only recently Did i decide to start taking Saturdays off.
Believe ME It is starting to get to me
I feel like I need to go back and Do over My CompSci Degree, because I am sure they taught me all this and I just don’t remember it.
Its so bad that I have decided to find some course somewhere on Software development, Cause I am sure I‘m doing something wrong.
Added that though, the part that really bugs me, is how to juggle all this work and actually get the Job Done. Everybody here does with such ease and Calm it just AAAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!! Why cant I do it.
Slowly I getting that feeling again where I half expect to open my email again and see a termination letter.
Any way I gone back to work
Signed: FLIPPIN FUSTRATED!