Rambling about psyche

Have you ever had one of those days you look in the mirror and you see a punk (actually the word I want to use is more explicit).

I find such moments interesting; I suspect I am not alone in experiencing such emotions. But it makes the paradoxes that is the ‘human psyche’ even more fascinating.

Taking myself as an example; I suspect that my ego is over inflated.
On one hand I think the world of myself while at the same time I possess such a plethora of insecurities I find it hard to reconcile the contradiction that is my persona.

In light of this, I have learned to realize that each individual I meet is multidimensional, where number of dimensions tend to infinity.
The problem is, there is no way for me to really appreciate this. You see, if I can’t figure myself out, there is no way I can begin to see, let alone understand, all the aspects that make up a person.

Hmmmmm

Having said this, my SO/GF has said that I like to ‘psycho analyze people’, I beg to differ, the truth is ‘humans’ fascinate me, the way we think, we move, what motivates us what drives us, our action and in-actions is very interesting to see. At the same time much of what I see in humans (including myself) I do not like. That, I am sure, has come out in my blogging.

This fascination of how and why humans tick has lead me to see the truth that is the borg.

The Remedy

Well I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes, I cannot make them go away
Cause you were born on the fourth of July
Freedom ring
Well something on the surface it stinks
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
To say that you deserve this
And what kind of God would serve this
We will cure this dirty old disease
Well if you've gots the poison, I've gots the remedy

The remedy is the experience, this is a dangerous liaison
I says the comedy is that it's serious
This is a strange enough new play on words
I said, the tragedy is how you're going to spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
Well, it all amounts to nothing
In the end

I won't worry my life away
I won't worry my life away

Well I heard two men, talking on the radio
In a crossfire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
Or they were counting down the ways to stab the brother in the
Be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, with a minty fresh death-breath
Is sure to outlast this catastrophe
Dance with me
'Cause if you’ve gots the poison, I've gots the remedy

The remedy is the experience, this is a dangerous liaison
I says the comedy is that it's serious
This is a strange enough new play on words
I said, the tragedy is how you're going to spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When, it all amounts to nothing
In the end

I won't worry my life away
I won't worry my life away

When I fall in love
I take my time, there's no need to hurry
When I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun, but I'm still going to shine
And I'll tell you why

Because the remedy is the experience, this is a dangerous liaison
I says the comedy is that it's serious
This is a strange enough new play on words
I said, the tragedy is how you're going to spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When, it all amounts to nothing
In the end

I won't worry my life away
I won't worry my life away

Cause I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
Won’t worry my life away

Wake Up - Alanis Morissette

Wake Up

You like snow but only if it's warm
You like rain but only if it's dry
No sentimental value to the rose that fell on your floor
No fundamental excuse for the granted I'm taken for

'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you, to you

You like pain but only if it doesn't hurt too much
And you sit, and you wait, to receive
There's an obvious attraction
To the path of least resistence in your life
There's an obvious aversion no amount of my insistance
Could make you try tonight

'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you to you to you to you to you
There's no love no money no thrill anymore

There's an apprehensive naked little trembling boy
With his head in his hands
There's an underestimated and impatient little girl
Raising her hand

But it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you, to you

Get up get up get up off of it
Get up get up get up off of it
Get out get outta here enough already
Get up get up get up off of it
Wake up

SOs/GFs and EXs

There is a new Blog that i have been following:
"The Company Bitch"
Recently she blogged about her boyfreind and his ex, Now this is not the first time I have heard situations like this, my Q is however; Is it that these women are just unrealistically paranoid, or is it that they know men too well??????

Battle within

I know I am not the center of the universe and that the world does not revolve around me but............. Its hard to remember that sometimes.

COMMS

I am now SICK AND TIRED OF THIS (***insert expletive here***)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! project

Bad Mood

Have you ever been in one of those mood\s where you just want to say “---- the world don’t ask me for ---- but you know that you have to be careful because that attitude would push your closest friends away. Added to that, you can’t really say anything because that will only make them feel they need to cheer you up and you really are not in the mood.
It is extremely hard to keep a cheerful face to protect the people you love the most from the nasty mood that wants nothing more than to tell them to .......
The worst part is you know this mood wont last for more than 24 hrs at most and as such these 24 hrs get extremely dragged out, as you fight to control you words and hope you wont say anything to irrevocably damage your relationships.

Having said all this, as you can tell I was in such a mood the other day, But what struck me was the fact that if the shoe was on the other foot, I too would want to ‘cheer’ up any friend that is really depressed. I too have that nasty habit of just hanging around when they probably just want to be left alone.

The difficulty really lies in determining when to just leave well alone and when not to. There are those who make no bones about telling people to just go away
But for most of my friends I often ignore such statements depending on how serious I deem them to be….. hmmmmm

Have to run, much to be considered here though