In a discussion I was having with a friend of mine recently, it was let slip that she thought I was ‘Naive’. Of course being blessed with Testosterone, I thought I new the ‘game of life’ well enough to survive out there. She went on to say that I was easy to manipulate.
Now of course this severely threatened me ego, so I went around asking a few other of my female friends if they too thought I was Naïve. Needless to say the answers I got were not reassuring, those who didnt look away and refused to answer (I am assuming the didn’t want to damage my ego any further) tried to pretty it up by calling it something else.
Boy what a wake up call. Of course for a few days after I was worried about this; am I really that naïve? I know that looking at myself a couple years ago now, I would call myself naïve, and sheltered, not by my parents, but rather sheltered by life.
I have basically have been living a charmed life, nothing exceptionally great, but at the end of the day I have to be happy, its hard to find things to complain about at times. Even though I may worry a bit, I have a somewhat childish view that things will end up in my favor some way some how, and the great part is it usually does (Thank you Lord :D) But I digress…..
Now a days I really thought I was no longer clueless, that I was getting the hang of this hole life thing, but apparently, I have been fooling myself.
Having thought long and hard about this, however, I have come to realization that it doesn’t matter, the whole point of life is that you learn as you go, along, I figure my track record shows that I am definitely improving, maybe not at a pace that I should, but at least there is progress.
I have also learned there is also a value to being clueless, its highly underrated.
In any case, I realize this is just one of those pins to keep me in check.